DATED : Friday, December 24, 2010
TITLED: What Has Happened To Us? Repost
TIMED: 9:28 AM
Hello! It's my comeback one-shot after the exams!Enjoy~
This is specially dedicated to Clarissa and Fangyi.
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What Has Happened To Us?
Kyuwook
Kyuhyun
Ryeowook"I cannot fathom what has happened to us,do wounds and hurt hide behind honesty?
I cannot guess what has happened to our love,
Will anything be revived after it rains?"
If there was anything to describe Kyuhyun's relationship with Ryeowook, it would be exactly these few sentences.
Once, the two had been inseparable-as though Ryeowook was Kyuhyun's shadow. Although Kyuhyun was the younger one, he was used to leading Ryeowook everywhere and anywhere. If Ryeowook was a kite flying freely in the sky, soaring over mountains, then Kyuhyun was the string attached to him, never letting go of his beloved for even one second.
But now, all that loved that the two once shared between them was now only a ghost of their past. No, Kyuhyun corrected himself, there wasn't even the faintest trace left. It had seemed that their relationship had evaporated suddenly, leaving in place only an awkward and cold-as-ice atmosphere.
"All because of Seunghyun..."Kyuhyun chewed his food glumly, never taking his eyes off Ryeowook who sat across him. The older male's eyes were downcast, but Kyuhyun could clearly notice the listlessness and unhappiness in them. His face was like a mask;it bore the same look of indifference and coldness that Ryeowook had donned on ever since the death of his elder brother Seunghyun one year ago. His mouth seemed to curve down in an eternal droop, but even this did not spoil the beauty of his face. However, while the Ryeowook one year ago would be a constant source of sunshine and warmth, this Ryeowook was like dry ice-seemingly cold yet burning simultaneously and woe betide any poor soul who dared to disrupt his dreaming yet troubled soul.
Yet, towards this new Ryeowook, Kyuhyun did not recoil in fear. In fact, all Kyuhyun felt was regret. Pure, simple regret. It was all his fault in the first place...If only he had trusted his instincts to not drive that night, Seunghyun might not have had to enter the gates of heaven. It was all his fault.
"I'm done." Kyuhyun's eyes snapped up and his mind was pulled back to reality when Ryeowook stood up and stated this plainly. He watched silently as the older male dragged his feet over to the kitchen, in his hand a plate full of leftover food that he had been pushing and poking at, rather than devouring it down.
Kyuhyun was grateful that Ryeowook decided to continue living with him even after the accident, though it was probably more of convenience than of willingness. This fact was blatantly yet painfully obvious; Ryeowook treated Kyuhyun like air, speaking to him only in short, sharp sentences filled with caution. Even when they spoke, Ryeowook didn't even look him in the eye.
"It's been a year already, how long is he going to keep this up?" Kyuhyun sighed, more in frustration than anger. No, he could never be angry at Ryeowook, even if he willed himself too. What right had he anyway? But Kyuhyun wanted to speak with his precious Wookie so much; he was dying for even a conversation with him. Just one teensy little chat...But it was more likely that Mr Tay would start fan-boying over Wonder Girls than Ryeowook would ever conscend to maintain on speaking terms with Kyuhyun.
Kyuhyun bit his lip and made his way over to the kitchen, where Ryeowook was still washing the dishes.
"Ryeowook..." Kyuhyun blurted out. He saw a flash of panic cross over Ryeowook's cold face, only to be replaced with anger and indifference settled in yet again. Ryeowook bolted out of the kitchen as though Kyuhyun had attempted to whack his head with a frying pan. Kyuhyun watched him, heart sinking to the depths of the ocean. He leaghed bitterly,"Great, I'm so repulsive that he can't even stand being in the same room as me..."
Regardless of this, Kyuhyun still made up his mind to approach Ryeowook again. Knocking on Ryeowook's ajar door gently, Kyuhyun asked meekly,"May I come in?"
Ryeowook threw him a dirty look that plainly said,"If you're already standing at my door, you can just come in, but if you're wishing that I will be a nice guy like Elmo, you've probably watched too much Sesame Street."
Kyuhyun made his way to Ryeowook's side cautiously and sat down on the floor next to him. "Ryeowook..." he tried again.
"What?" the elder male snapped back, not too successful in concealing the irritation is his voice.
Ignoring that, Kyuhyun went on,"It's been a year already, please don't be like this anymore. I've really missed you a lot. Please talk to me..."
Ryeowook cut him off unmercifully,"At least...at least I'm still here. What about Seunghyun? He's dead, and who's to blame for it? And you still dare to give me all this crap about missing me. You're a real hypocrite, Cho Kyuhyun!"
"I'm really sorry."
"Sorry? Will a simple 'sorry' bring Sunghyun back to life?" Ryeowook shrieked in derison, taunting Kyuhyun, his face contorted in s spasm of pain.
"I couldn't help it," Kyuhyun bowed his head, tears forming at the edge of his eyes. Oh, why was he so stupid to have thought Ryeowook would forgive him? Now, all he did was to dig up Ryeowook's old wound, scarring him once again.
Ryeowook could bear it no longer. Grabbing Kyuhyun up roughly by the collar, he spat into the younger male's face,"Not your fault? But who was the one behind the wheel of the car? If only you hadn't drunk before you drive, you wouldn't have crashed! Are you really that retarded? The government spends so much money to encourage people to not drink and drive, and yet you went ahead and did it anyway! And Seunghyun was innocent! You were the one driving, but he was a mere passenger in your car! And he died because you, an imcompetent nincompoop, drank liquor, drove and crashed into a tree! And you know what bugs me? It's the fact that he lost his life but you escaped with nary a scratch? Why is it such an unjust world? Why couldn't you have died instead? Why????!!!!" His voice was rising with every single sentence and by the time he ended his angry tirade, his voice was comparable to that of an opera singer. Ryeowook panted heavily and eyed Kyuhyun with hatred. He had suppressed his emotions for a year already, and it felt great to be able to release them finally. Cho Kyuhyun-Ryeowook could feel nothing but anger and hatred towards his former boyfriend.
While Ryeowook was fuming, Kyuhyun felt his heart being torn cruelly into a thousand pieces. Ryeowook's spiteful words dealt a hard blow to him. They were like a sharp knife, piercing through his heart and leaving an eternal scar there. "Do you really dislike me this much?" he asked, his voice quivering with hurt.
Ryeowook stopped short and threw him a sidelong glance before replying hardly,"No. I HATE you. Get out off my life."
"But..."Kyuhyun protested weakly.
"You heard me. Get out of here, get out of this house. NOW." Ryeowook threatened him menacingly, pointing a shaky finger towards the front door.
Kyuhyun, hoping to avoid aggravating Ryeowook any furthur, took the cue to leave. As he neared the door, he stopped and turned around. With eyes full of love and regret, he murmured,"I'm sorry."
Ryeowook heard the front door close shut gently. Rubbing his temples, he sank down on his bed and gritted his teeth together. "Kyuhyun's right, it's not his fault. It's my fault for dating him in the first place. If I didn't date him, he would not have driven Seunghyun back to our house...It's my fault.
Ryeowook heard his phone ringing. "Stupid Kyuhyun," he cursed. He ignored his ringing phone and just stared blankly up at the ceiling. "Seunghyun, I miss you so much. Why did you leave me? Why couldn't...couldn't Kyuhyun have went in your place instead?" A tear dropped out from the corner of Ryeowook's eye. Clenching his fist, he wished that Kyuhyun was here again, so that he could punch that guy.
His phone stopped ringing, only to start again less than ten secounds later. Damn that Cho Kyuhyun! An irate Ryeowook picked up the call and screamed,"Cho Kyuhyun, you idiot, stop calling! I don't want to hear from you ever again!" He slammed his phone shut, not forgetting to turn it off first.
Ryeowook left his room to get a glass of water. When he passsed by Kyuhyun's room, he felt a nagging urge to enter it. His legs defied his mind and stalked into Kyuhyun's room.
It had been a long time since he entered Kyuhyun's room. Nothing had changed. Ryeowook spied a small diary on Kyuhyun's table. "Urgh...No, don't touch it, even if he's my foe, I have no right to read his private thoughts..." Ryeowook muttered to himself. Yet once again, he found himself cautiously flipping open the pages of Kyuhyun's diary.
Inside, Kyuhyun had written about many of their times together. In spite of himself, Ryeowook smiled when he recollected some of their past shared moments. Then his eyes fell on a particular page.
It was the entry about the night Seunghyun died.
"Dear Diary, Seunghyun died today. I really depressed...It's all my fault! I remember that Seunghyun had asked me to meet him at a club. He drank a lot, but I didn't as I had to drive the both of us back together. However, I felt a little tipsy when I left the club. I brushed it off thoug, thinking it was a fainting spell. I think we were driving along a road when I crashed into a tree...but I can't recollect anything about it! I only remember waking up in a hospital and Ryeowook bawling that Seunghyun was dead. I must have been drunk...But I didn't drink anything! What happened? Oh wait...did Seunghyun slip something into my drink? But why would he? There's no other reason though...and when I returned from the toilet, I saw him pouring something into my drink, which he vehemently denied about. Why would he want to frame me? Why? I'm his brother's lover after all. Hey, wait up. Didn't Seunghyun just lose a promotion to me? After all, he was displeased when I got promoted instead of him? Is that it? Should I tell Ryeowook? I'd better not...I don't want him to destroy the perfect image he has of Seunghyun in his mind...Help! I'm so confused!"
Ryeowook slammed the diary shut. "So it WAS Seunghyun's fault...Not Kyuhyun's. I've been wrong about him all along! Oh no! Kyuhyun, I'm so sorry!"
Just then, their house phone rang. Ryeowook dashed out of the room and yanked the phone up, almost disconnecting the wire in the process. "Hello Kyuhyun, I'm sorry, I found out the truth!"
There was silence at the other end of the line, then a voice continued,"Is this the residence of Cho Kyuhyun?"
"Yes..." Ryeowook felt his heart lurch. He had a bad premonition about this.
"This is the police. We've found the body of Cho Kyuhyun. We think that he was killed in a robbery attempt..."
Ryeowook clutched at the phone. His whole body turned cold. "I b-beg y-you pardon?" he cried out, stuttering.
"He was found dead in an alley. He was stabbed in the heart and died due to loss of blood. His valuables were all taken away and he was found with a bouquet of purple hyacinths. We need you to come down and identify the body."
"I'll be there!" Ryeowook hung up and scurried out of the house hastily.
"Please, please let it not be Kyuhyun..." Ryeowook prayed fervently on the bus. He turned on his phone and saw that he had 4 missed calls. All were dialled by Kyuhyun.
"Ryeowook, I'm so sorry, it was my fault. Please forgive me. I-I love you."
The second call,"Ryeowook, I'm coming back from the florist. There's a man shadowing me...I'm scared. Are you still angry? Can I come up now? I'll only come up when you tell me to."
"R-ryeowook..." heavy panting was heard from the other end of the line,"That man...he's trying to rob me. May I come up now? I'm really sorry!"
"Ryeowook..." Kyuhyun's voice was weak and he coughed."I'm really sorry. I brought so much pain to you...You're right. I should have died instead. I'm really sorry...I don't think I'll survive this ordeal...that bastard stabbed me and ran off with my money. I'm really afraid I won't see you ever again...I want you to know, I'll always love you."
The all ended. A tear fell from Ryeowook's eyes. Then another. Then another. "Stupid Kyuhyun, I don't deserve your love, why are you so good to me?" By this time, Ryeowook was sobbing like an uncontrollable waterfall. Even when he was going to die...he still called me to tell me how much he loved me! Why was I so selfish? If I had picked up the call, he needn't have died! I'm sorry, Kyuhyun...
Ryeowook got off at the police station and he felt his heart pounding as he trailed after the police to identify the body. It was Kyuhyun. Ryeowook felt his heart skip a beat.
Kneeling down at the younger man's side, Ryeowook brushed his hair away gently and held his hand, only to find a bunch of purple hyacinths in it.
Purple hyacinths...the flowers whose language were "I'm sorry"...
He realised that there was a card attached to it. Flipping it open, he fount that Kyuhyun had written a message in his own blood," Dear Ryeowook, I'm so sorry. I love you. I don't think I'll survive. So before I die, I want to let you know how much you mean to me. I never blamed you for hating me...It was my fault. Please carry on with your life and forget me. I'm just a bastard who ruined your life. And Seunghyun's too. I'm sorry...I love you."
Ryeowook buried his head into Kyuhyun's chest, his dried up tears once again finding their way down his cheeks. Oblivious to the fact that the police officers were watching. Planting a kiss on Kyuhyun's forehead, he whispered,"I'm so sorry too...Please forgive me. I love you too."
The End
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How did you guys find it? Hope you enjoyed it! The lyrics at the start of the fanfic are from S.H.E's 我们怎么了。 Thank you for reading! I love you guys.
Labels: Kyuwook, Repost
XOXO
Super Junior ELF :D
DATED :
TITLED: ~Invisible Wings~ Repost
TIMED: 9:25 AM
This is dedicated to my Loony Helen, Sarcastic Aileen, Cold Clarissa, Wacky Jacelyn, Selfish Fang Yi, Fierce Serene, Childish Jaimelynne, Emo Kai Ting and Naggy Twin Jeng Mun(We have almost identical blog addresses. You suggested it. LOL). I love you guys. Saranghae~
"Each time, I become stronger in lonelinessEach time, although I'm hurt badly, I won't shed a tearBecause I know I have a pair of invisible wingsThat will let me fly, fly over my despair..."A beautiful singing voice penetrated his sleeping mind. That voice...was sweet and lilting, coupled with a gentle touch. It was indescribable. That perfect voice would put even Beethoven's loveliest melody to shame. Slowly, he cracked open one eye cautiously, and then the other. "Oh, you're awake!" the same cute voice exclaimed.He found himself staring into a pair of alluring eyes. Eyes that were a kaleidoscope of chocolate and light black, occasionally flecked with a soft lighter brown. The eyes were full of care and concern, giving him the feeling of falling into a warm bed after a tiring day of work. He wouldn't mind being in them forever. Those eyes...were so entrancing..."Er...hello? Are you still there?"He snapped out of his trance and found himself looking now not only at the other party's eyes, but his captivating face. There was no other word to describe him but angelic. The man's face, though small, had a strong square jawline. His cute-as-a-button nose and high cheekbones complemented his features perfectly. His rosebud-like mouth were curled into a small , adorable pout. Coupled with his short black hair gently framing his face, with his fringe swept to the side, this man was simply mesmerising."H-E-L-L-O?" The other man was now waving his arms frantically. "Are you possessed?""W-what? Oh, sorry...no. I just sp-spaced out for a while," the first man mumbled hastily in reply, averting his gaze shyly and blushing madly."It's ok. My name is Ryeowook. A few days ago, I found you outside my apartment's building. You were unconscious and badly beaten up, so I decided to take you in..after all, it WAS snowing, I couldn't leave you out there in the cold. And...I hope you don't mind, but I looked through your belongings to get an idea of who you are, but I only found this photo of you and a girl...Two names were scribbled behind it: Kyuhyun and Seohyun. I'm guessing that since Seohyun is a girl's name, you must be Kyuhyun, right? Unless you want to tell me you're a transsexual?" the guy named Ryeowook gave a shout of laughter at his joke, while Kyuhyun just frowned. His next words left Ryeowook dumbfounded."Really? I don't know...I-I can't remember..."Ryeowook blinked a few times, before stuttering in shock," W-Wha..what? What do you mean, you can't remember? Have you lost your memory?""I...Ah!" Kyuhyun scrunched up his face in concentration and tried to recall his memories, but he felt a sudden rush or pain course through his mind. The pain felt as though it was grabbing hold of his mind, pulling and pinching it. It got worse when he tried to press himself even harder, the pain now magnified ten times, as though there were strong currents of electricity passing through it. He let grabbed his mind and curled his body into a ball, before letting out a gasp of pain. In fact, it was so pain that he began to scratch himself while letting out moans."Hey, are you ok?" Ryeowook's voice got higher and higher as he hovered anxiously over the writhing Kyuhyun. He grabbed the other male's shoulders and shook him lightly. "Don't be like this...are you alright?" he whispered worriedly, tears gathering at his eyes. For some reason, he felt his heart breaking...maybe it was because Ryeowook hated to see anyone having to go through pain, after what he had suffered and lost. Or maybe it was because after taking care of Kyuhyun for these few days, he had unconsciously developed a strong affection for him. Whatever it was, Ryeowook instinctively enveloped Kyuhyun in a tight embrace, patting his back gently."I'm sorry, I really can't remember anything..." Kyuhyun's pained voice trailed off apologetically. He balled his fists. Why was he so useless? And in front of such a...beautiful person too....Ryeowook smiled sympathetically. He knew this...this feeling of uselessness and lost. "It's ok, you can stay with me as long as you want," he murmured encouragingly.Shaking his head resolutely, Kyuhyun refused," No, I can't trouble you anymore.""Hey, I'm a very lonely person too. You're going to pay for boarding with me by keeping me company. I'm so lonely. Come one~ Pity me and say you'll stay!" Ryeowook puffed out his cheeks and pleaded coyly. In spite of himself, Kyuhyun felt an urge to reach out and ruffle Ryeowook's hair. He looked like a chipmunk. A really cute one. "Ok...thank you for taking me in," he bowed his head gratefully and thanked the older male. Ryeowook beamed and clapped his hands like a child in a toy store, before reaching over to squeeze the life out of Kyuhyun and squealing in excitement. Kyuhyun only smiled wearily and hugged the younger man back. However, he was eternally grateful to this kind soul who took him in in spite of him being a total stranger. He might have been a wacko for all Ryeowook knew. However, Ryeowook still wanted to care for him. Surprisingly, he felt unexpected happiness flowing through him. This happiness...was like honey. Sweet, pure and unaldutured honey. And Kyuhyun wanted it to stay, just like he wanted Ryeowook never to leave him. He felt a close bond with Ryeowook immediately, though they had just met. He wanted to be Ryeowook's invisible wings, or whatever the heck he had been singing about. Kyuhyun just wanted to hold Ryeowook and let the latter dispel all his fear and insecurity.*4 months later*The days flew by, one by one, and the two of them grew closer and closer. However, Kyuhyun still had not regained his memory. But this mattered naught to them. All that was of concern was them having each other in the future. Kyuhyun noticed that occasionally, Ryeowook would sigh and knit his eyebrows together when he reckoned that no one noticed. He chose to keep quiet though, feeling it was none of his business. But on one particular chilly night, he awoke to the sound of Ryeowook sobbing in the room next to his. Stealing out of his room stealthily, Kyuhyun turned the doorknob of Ryeowook's room and entered. He found Ryeowook hiding under the blankets, and from the sound of it, absolutely sobbing his heart out. "Wookie, what's wrong?" he placed his hand on the lump that was Ryeowook's body and prodded the older male gently. "Nothing, Kyu...Go back to sleep," Ryeowook tried to command Kyuhyun, but the younger male yanked off his covers and squeezed in next to him. He then hugged Ryeowook, kissing the top of Ryeowook's forehead. "Something IS wrong...You can tell me anything. I'm your personal rubbish dump. Pour all your bad memories into me and I'll throw them into the incinerator!" Ryeowook gave a strangled sound, which sounded like a cross between a laugh and a sob. He sighed, melancholy creeping into his voice," My mother died giving birth to me, so my father had to bring me up painstakingly. However, when I was fifteen, he contracted cancer and died. The worst part was watching him suffer...yet I could do nothing about it. I wanted so much to change places with him...I felt so useless. I couldn't shield him from the pain. And today, I had another nightmare about him...dying. Kyuhyun, you won't leave me, will you? So many people have left my side already, I don't want you to be the next...Stay with me, please..." Kyuhyun hugged Ryeowook tighter and closed his eyes. " Don't worry, I'll never leave your side. Because you're an angel, and I shall be your invisible wings...I love you, Kim Ryeowook."Ryeowook nuzzled Kyuhyun's neck and intertwined their fingers. "I love you too, Kyuhyun..."Kyuhyun lowered his head down to place a soft kiss on Ryeowook's lips. He felt his heart pounding in nervous anticipation. When their lips touched, it was softer than anything Kyuhyun had imagined. Breathing in the scent of Ryeowook's hair, it was pure ecstasy. Major fireworks. Two souls combining into one...A sweet, passionate kiss full of longing. Deepening the kiss, he knew that there would be no other moment like this. He wanted to hold on to it tightly forever. As for Ryeowook, he felt electricity coursing through his veins. This was what he had been hoping for for so long...And it was even better than expected. This kiss...though simple, Ryeowook feel like the happiest guy on earth. And he relished every moment of it.*A month later*"Ding dong!""I'll get that, Wookie!" Kyuhyun called out as he rushed to the door. As he pulled the door open, he noticed it was a pretty girl standing outside it. Upon seeing Kyuhyun, she rushed into his arms, crying," Oh, Kyuhyun! It's been 5 months...are you alright? I missed you so much..."Kyuhyun pushed her away gently but firmly, stating," I'm sorry, miss, but I really don't know who you are.""I'm Seohyun...don't you remember? I'm your girlfriend. When my father found out we were dating five months ago, he was so angry that he got his men to beat you up. I couldn't contact you ever since then...It was only recently that I saw you again around this area and followed you here.""Hey, Kyu, who's that? Oh..." Ryeowook's voice trailed off as he heard Seohyun's explanation. He dashed to the door and sure enough, there was the pretty girl from the picture."Do you have proof?" Kyuhyun raised his eyebrows in skeptism.The girl rummaged through her bag and brought out her phone, showing the two men various pictues of her and Kyuhyun together."Kyuhyun, come back to me...I missed you so much..." Seohyun pleaded, tears cascading down her face like a waterfall."I..." Kyuhyun was at a loss of word as he looked from the sobbing Seohyun to Ryeowook, who was bravely attempting to rearrange his features into a smile.Ryeowook pushed his to Seohyun and said through tears," Go with her, Kyuhyunnie. After all, you belong with her, not me...You should return to your original life.""But..." Kyuhyun was in a dilemma. It would break his heart to leave Ryeowook, but what about the girl?"Go." This time, it sounded more of a command than a request. Kyuhyun had no choice but to pack his stuff and leave with the girl. Before he left, he threw a glance at his beloved Ryeowook, but the latter had already slammed the door shut in their faces. Kyuhyun could swear he hard an anguished cry of pain before it closed. *6 months later*Ryeowook was lying on the sand at the beach. He was at the edge of the water, where the currents could wash up to his knees. The water though cold, felt so comforting. And the fact that it was 11 at night helped, since there was no one around. Ryeowook finally felt at peace. However, there was still that gnawing pain in his heart. The pain that would come up whenever he thought of Kyuhyun. Those people who said that time would heal all wounds were liars. If that were true, how come Ryeowoon's heart still felt like it was being stabbed by a pointed blade everytime he thought of Kyuhyun? So many others had left him...Though Kyuhyun had promised, he still left at the end. Though it was more of Ryeowook's fault, since he was the one who chased Kyuhyun away. This didn't ease the pain though.Ryeowook thought of that song again:"Each time, I become stronger in lonelinessEach time, although I'm badly hurt, I won't shed a tear.Because I know I have a pair of invisible wingsThat will enable me to fly, fly over my despair..."Ryeowook gave a bitter laugh,"Since Kyuhyun is gone, do I still have invisible wings?"To his surprise, a familiar voice answered him," Your Kyuhyun was gone once, but he has come back..."Ryeowook whirled around in surpised. "K-Kyuhyun?" He didn't dare to believe his ears.He was rewarded with a giant bear hug as Kyuhyun took him into his arms. Burying his head into Ryeowook's hair, Kyuhyun apologised," I spent this half year trying to regain my memory...however, although I remembered everything, I still felt empty. Empty because I broke my promise to you. Empty because...I left my heart right here with you when I went back. So I'm here to get it back...and get you back. Mianhaeyo, Ryewook, please forgive me for leaving you. I'll never leave you again. I love you. Saranghae."The two lovebirds touched noses and kissed, once again. The kiss...was Kyuhyun's promise to Ryeowook, and something he intended to keep forever.The EndOmg, ok, that was REALLY freaking fail. Please give me comments to improve it! I still hope it makes Helen happier after her exams~ I love you guys! Urgh, this story sucks. I hate myself. Btw this was done like very quickly, as my dad was screaming at me to get off while I was writing. So that explains half the reason why this sucked so much. PLEASE. I KNOW IT SUCKS, SO LEAVE COMMENTS TELLING ME HOW TO IMPROVE, OK? THANKS:DDDD OMG RYEOWOOK AND KYUHYUN ARE LOVE MY KYUHYUNNIE~
Thanks everyone and saranghae~
Bye!<3>
Labels: Invisible Wings, Kyuwook, Repost
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Super Junior ELF :D
DATED : Monday, October 4, 2010
TITLED: ~Invisible Wings~
TIMED: 5:28 AM
This is dedicated to my Loony Helen, Sarcastic Aileen, Cold Clarissa, Wacky Jacelyn, Selfish Fang Yi, Fierce Serene, Childish Jaimelynne, Emo Kai Ting and Naggy Twin Jeng Mun(We have almost identical blog addresses. You suggested it. LOL). I love you guys. Saranghae~
"Each time, I become stronger in lonelinessEach time, although I'm hurt badly, I won't shed a tearBecause I know I have a pair of invisible wingsThat will let me fly, fly over my despair..."A beautiful singing voice penetrated his sleeping mind. That voice...was sweet and lilting, coupled with a gentle touch. It was indescribable. That perfect voice would put even Beethoven's loveliest melody to shame. Slowly, he cracked open one eye cautiously, and then the other. "Oh, you're awake!" the same cute voice exclaimed.He found himself staring into a pair of alluring eyes. Eyes that were a kaleidoscope of chocolate and light black, occasionally flecked with a soft lighter brown. The eyes were full of care and concern, giving him the feeling of falling into a warm bed after a tiring day of work. He wouldn't mind being in them forever. Those eyes...were so entrancing..."Er...hello? Are you still there?"He snapped out of his trance and found himself looking now not only at the other party's eyes, but his captivating face. There was no other word to describe him but angelic. The man's face, though small, had a strong square jawline. His cute-as-a-button nose and high cheekbones complemented his features perfectly. His rosebud-like mouth were curled into a small , adorable pout. Coupled with his short black hair gently framing his face, with his fringe swept to the side, this man was simply mesmerising."H-E-L-L-O?" The other man was now waving his arms frantically. "Are you possessed?""W-what? Oh, sorry...no. I just sp-spaced out for a while," the first man mumbled hastily in reply, averting his gaze shyly and blushing madly."It's ok. My name is Ryeowook. A few days ago, I found you outside my apartment's building. You were unconscious and badly beaten up, so I decided to take you in..after all, it WAS snowing, I couldn't leave you out there in the cold. And...I hope you don't mind, but I looked through your belongings to get an idea of who you are, but I only found this photo of you and a girl...Two names were scribbled behind it: Kyuhyun and Seohyun. I'm guessing that since Seohyun is a girl's name, you must be Kyuhyun, right? Unless you want to tell me you're a transsexual?" the guy named Ryeowook gave a shout of laughter at his joke, while Kyuhyun just frowned. His next words left Ryeowook dumbfounded."Really? I don't know...I-I can't remember..."Ryeowook blinked a few times, before stuttering in shock," W-Wha..what? What do you mean, you can't remember? Have you lost your memory?""I...Ah!" Kyuhyun scrunched up his face in concentration and tried to recall his memories, but he felt a sudden rush or pain course through his mind. The pain felt as though it was grabbing hold of his mind, pulling and pinching it. It got worse when he tried to press himself even harder, the pain now magnified ten times, as though there were strong currents of electricity passing through it. He let grabbed his mind and curled his body into a ball, before letting out a gasp of pain. In fact, it was so pain that he began to scratch himself while letting out moans."Hey, are you ok?" Ryeowook's voice got higher and higher as he hovered anxiously over the writhing Kyuhyun. He grabbed the other male's shoulders and shook him lightly. "Don't be like this...are you alright?" he whispered worriedly, tears gathering at his eyes. For some reason, he felt his heart breaking...maybe it was because Ryeowook hated to see anyone having to go through pain, after what he had suffered and lost. Or maybe it was because after taking care of Kyuhyun for these few days, he had unconsciously developed a strong affection for him. Whatever it was, Ryeowook instinctively enveloped Kyuhyun in a tight embrace, patting his back gently."I'm sorry, I really can't remember anything..." Kyuhyun's pained voice trailed off apologetically. He balled his fists. Why was he so useless? And in front of such a...beautiful person too....Ryeowook smiled sympathetically. He knew this...this feeling of uselessness and lost. "It's ok, you can stay with me as long as you want," he murmured encouragingly.Shaking his head resolutely, Kyuhyun refused," No, I can't trouble you anymore.""Hey, I'm a very lonely person too. You're going to pay for boarding with me by keeping me company. I'm so lonely. Come one~ Pity me and say you'll stay!" Ryeowook puffed out his cheeks and pleaded coyly. In spite of himself, Kyuhyun felt an urge to reach out and ruffle Ryeowook's hair. He looked like a chipmunk. A really cute one. "Ok...thank you for taking me in," he bowed his head gratefully and thanked the older male. Ryeowook beamed and clapped his hands like a child in a toy store, before reaching over to squeeze the life out of Kyuhyun and squealing in excitement. Kyuhyun only smiled wearily and hugged the younger man back. However, he was eternally grateful to this kind soul who took him in in spite of him being a total stranger. He might have been a wacko for all Ryeowook knew. However, Ryeowook still wanted to care for him. Surprisingly, he felt unexpected happiness flowing through him. This happiness...was like honey. Sweet, pure and unaldutured honey. And Kyuhyun wanted it to stay, just like he wanted Ryeowook never to leave him. He felt a close bond with Ryeowook immediately, though they had just met. He wanted to be Ryeowook's invisible wings, or whatever the heck he had been singing about. Kyuhyun just wanted to hold Ryeowook and let the latter dispel all his fear and insecurity.*4 months later*The days flew by, one by one, and the two of them grew closer and closer. However, Kyuhyun still had not regained his memory. But this mattered naught to them. All that was of concern was them having each other in the future. Kyuhyun noticed that occasionally, Ryeowook would sigh and knit his eyebrows together when he reckoned that no one noticed. He chose to keep quiet though, feeling it was none of his business. But on one particular chilly night, he awoke to the sound of Ryeowook sobbing in the room next to his. Stealing out of his room stealthily, Kyuhyun turned the doorknob of Ryeowook's room and entered. He found Ryeowook hiding under the blankets, and from the sound of it, absolutely sobbing his heart out. "Wookie, what's wrong?" he placed his hand on the lump that was Ryeowook's body and prodded the older male gently. "Nothing, Kyu...Go back to sleep," Ryeowook tried to command Kyuhyun, but the younger male yanked off his covers and squeezed in next to him. He then hugged Ryeowook, kissing the top of Ryeowook's forehead. "Something IS wrong...You can tell me anything. I'm your personal rubbish dump. Pour all your bad memories into me and I'll throw them into the incinerator!" Ryeowook gave a strangled sound, which sounded like a cross between a laugh and a sob. He sighed, melancholy creeping into his voice," My mother died giving birth to me, so my father had to bring me up painstakingly. However, when I was fifteen, he contracted cancer and died. The worst part was watching him suffer...yet I could do nothing about it. I wanted so much to change places with him...I felt so useless. I couldn't shield him from the pain. And today, I had another nightmare about him...dying. Kyuhyun, you won't leave me, will you? So many people have left my side already, I don't want you to be the next...Stay with me, please..." Kyuhyun hugged Ryeowook tighter and closed his eyes. " Don't worry, I'll never leave your side. Because you're an angel, and I shall be your invisible wings...I love you, Kim Ryeowook."Ryeowook nuzzled Kyuhyun's neck and intertwined their fingers. "I love you too, Kyuhyun..."Kyuhyun lowered his head down to place a soft kiss on Ryeowook's lips. He felt his heart pounding in nervous anticipation. When their lips touched, it was softer than anything Kyuhyun had imagined. Breathing in the scent of Ryeowook's hair, it was pure ecstasy. Major fireworks. Two souls combining into one...A sweet, passionate kiss full of longing. Deepening the kiss, he knew that there would be no other moment like this. He wanted to hold on to it tightly forever. As for Ryeowook, he felt electricity coursing through his veins. This was what he had been hoping for for so long...And it was even better than expected. This kiss...though simple, Ryeowook feel like the happiest guy on earth. And he relished every moment of it.*A month later*"Ding dong!""I'll get that, Wookie!" Kyuhyun called out as he rushed to the door. As he pulled the door open, he noticed it was a pretty girl standing outside it. Upon seeing Kyuhyun, she rushed into his arms, crying," Oh, Kyuhyun! It's been 5 months...are you alright? I missed you so much..."Kyuhyun pushed her away gently but firmly, stating," I'm sorry, miss, but I really don't know who you are.""I'm Seohyun...don't you remember? I'm your girlfriend. When my father found out we were dating five months ago, he was so angry that he got his men to beat you up. I couldn't contact you ever since then...It was only recently that I saw you again around this area and followed you here.""Hey, Kyu, who's that? Oh..." Ryeowook's voice trailed off as he heard Seohyun's explanation. He dashed to the door and sure enough, there was the pretty girl from the picture."Do you have proof?" Kyuhyun raised his eyebrows in skeptism.The girl rummaged through her bag and brought out her phone, showing the two men various pictues of her and Kyuhyun together."Kyuhyun, come back to me...I missed you so much..." Seohyun pleaded, tears cascading down her face like a waterfall."I..." Kyuhyun was at a loss of word as he looked from the sobbing Seohyun to Ryeowook, who was bravely attempting to rearrange his features into a smile.Ryeowook pushed his to Seohyun and said through tears," Go with her, Kyuhyunnie. After all, you belong with her, not me...You should return to your original life.""But..." Kyuhyun was in a dilemma. It would break his heart to leave Ryeowook, but what about the girl?"Go." This time, it sounded more of a command than a request. Kyuhyun had no choice but to pack his stuff and leave with the girl. Before he left, he threw a glance at his beloved Ryeowook, but the latter had already slammed the door shut in their faces. Kyuhyun could swear he hard an anguished cry of pain before it closed. *6 months later*Ryeowook was lying on the sand at the beach. He was at the edge of the water, where the currents could wash up to his knees. The water though cold, felt so comforting. And the fact that it was 11 at night helped, since there was no one around. Ryeowook finally felt at peace. However, there was still that gnawing pain in his heart. The pain that would come up whenever he thought of Kyuhyun. Those people who said that time would heal all wounds were liars. If that were true, how come Ryeowoon's heart still felt like it was being stabbed by a pointed blade everytime he thought of Kyuhyun? So many others had left him...Though Kyuhyun had promised, he still left at the end. Though it was more of Ryeowook's fault, since he was the one who chased Kyuhyun away. This didn't ease the pain though.Ryeowook thought of that song again:"Each time, I become stronger in lonelinessEach time, although I'm badly hurt, I won't shed a tear.Because I know I have a pair of invisible wingsThat will enable me to fly, fly over my despair..."Ryeowook gave a bitter laugh,"Since Kyuhyun is gone, do I still have invisible wings?"To his surprise, a familiar voice answered him," Your Kyuhyun was gone once, but he has come back..."Ryeowook whirled around in surpised. "K-Kyuhyun?" He didn't dare to believe his ears.He was rewarded with a giant bear hug as Kyuhyun took him into his arms. Burying his head into Ryeowook's hair, Kyuhyun apologised," I spent this half year trying to regain my memory...however, although I remembered everything, I still felt empty. Empty because I broke my promise to you. Empty because...I left my heart right here with you when I went back. So I'm here to get it back...and get you back. Mianhaeyo, Ryewook, please forgive me for leaving you. I'll never leave you again. I love you. Saranghae."The two lovebirds touched noses and kissed, once again. The kiss...was Kyuhyun's promise to Ryeowook, and something he intended to keep forever.The EndOmg, ok, that was REALLY freaking fail. Please give me comments to improve it! I still hope it makes Helen happier after her exams~ I love you guys! Urgh, this story sucks. I hate myself. Btw this was done like very quickly, as my dad was screaming at me to get off while I was writing. So that explains half the reason why this sucked so much. PLEASE. I KNOW IT SUCKS, SO LEAVE COMMENTS TELLING ME HOW TO IMPROVE, OK? THANKS:DDDD OMG RYEOWOOK AND KYUHYUN ARE LOVE MY KYUHYUNNIE~
Thanks everyone and saranghae~
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Labels: Invisible Wings, Kyuwook, One Shot
